But, of course, some of them saw their grades and got upset. We're not talking about Ds or Fs. We're talking about the kids who are used to writing a paper in twenty minutes and getting an A being confronted with a B and not knowing how to handle it.
The problem with throwing out As all willy nilly is that the kids are never going to acknowledge their shortcomings enough to overcome them and grow. I explained to my students that they are not the number on the paper. They shouldn't internalize that grade as a judgment of their worth as a human being or even as a writer. That grade is a snapshot of how I viewed their performance and measured their potential for growth on that particular assignment.
Nothing more. Nothing less.
This morning I stepped on the scale. 166 pounds.
Disgusting. Fat. Whale. Worthless.
I was doing the exact thing I asked my students not to do, judging myself by a number only. What if I reframed my thinking? Used this data as a snapshot only, a measurement tool. 166 pounds. Up about 10 from where I was 8 months ago. Down 80 from where I was 2 years ago.
I set out on my weight loss journey with a goal in mind. I'm not there yet, but I'm getting closer. Every day I make choices that can move me closer or further away from this goal. Will I go Zumba tonight? Eat pizza for dinner? Or a salad?
I'd like to lose 20-30 more pounds. Of course I know what I need to do to get to my goal weight.
That weird lumpy thing on my waistband is my Fitbit, btw. :D
I had my friend take a picture of me this morning in front of his amazing Super Mario Bros. bulletin board. I'm 166 pounds in this picture. I'm not particularly happy with the way I look. My legs are too stocky. My arms are too thick. But you know what? This is a snapshot. One moment in life. And, though I'm not thrilled with my weight, I am happy with my career and my family, and I am grateful that I have a healthy body with the potential to reach my goals.
It's probably too small for you to see what I'm pointing at, but it's invincible Mario. He's midair, about to reach that flag, to achieve his goal.
I'm not there yet, but I'm on my way.